I started this blog as a way of flirting and sharing fantasies with my soulmate/master/prince and pussyboi. It has served its purpose well, as I have evolved into a more confident and open lover. I’ve tried things I had never really heard of until I started searching them on Tumblr and loved every minute of the sexual journey I have made, as well as deepening my love and lust for my soulmate.
I have also learnt that true love is never about ourselves, it’s about the person you love. It’s putting their needs, their wants, their hopes and their dreams first. Giving instead of receiving. Believing in them when they are struggling to believe in themselves-fully accepting them and giving them the courage to grow in the relationship.
Relationships rely on you being truthful to yourself and others about what the reality of a situation is. My soulmate and I have never hid our desires, we’ve shared them openly and often-this has been our downfall. He confided to me every darkest desire, despite himself not being totally comfortable with them. I have embraced each and every one, not always instantly but eventually; I tried to make these desires a reality but with my enthusiasm I have caused problems.
After six years together, the love I experience for this man is so different to the one it started out as. It’s unselfish. I can see him struggling with his sexual desires and I know I bring the deviant out in him; my total acceptance of him makes him worry about boundaries/taboos he may cross and once a line has been crossed you can never go back and this is something he is very afraid off. I hate seeing him torn, I don’t believe that it should be this way, being with me has been likened to opening a Pandora’s box of sexual fantasy. If this wasn’t enough, I know he worries about coming across as an arse because he won’t consider marriage to me and that makes him feel selfish in light of my total acceptance of him.
I want him to be happy, to find inner peace and a sense of calm in his life. I create a storm when I’m around, my passion knows no limits and my enthusiasm for his sexual journey is intimidating and frightening to him. His journey to understand who he is needs to continue but it will do so with me out of the picture. It is because I love you, that I let you go.
This brings me to the end of my journey as princessandmistress; an end to this Tumblr, and an end to my much loved roles as his princess and sex kitten mistress. He will remain my soulmate in my heart and I shall always love and be in love with him.